To live as yourself
I used to reject my body and face. I hated myself. I’d tried to put myself into the stereotypes. I’d spent unfortunate life for a long time. But through people around me, I could see and read their own beauty. I realized that appearance cannot be an important factor to live as a shined person. Even if they have flaws or far away from the standard beauty, they are shining with their own hands, eyes, and body.
I fall in love with every aspect (natural wrinkles, smile, soft hands, deep eyes) that each body get beauty and brightness with their own features. Accordingly, it also affects on seeing and understanding myself with such eyes and heart. “What is my own beauty?” and “What is the meaning of the beauty in my own meaning?”
So, body has a lot of meaning for me. body becomes a material I use to communicate as an artist and designer. I can touch, feel, experience, and share warmth with others. Through this project I’m learning what it means to use my body as a means to express emotions, art, and narrative. This stage is more focused on how emotions come out through the body. Emotions are revealed naturally through the body. But, at the same time, people try to hide their emotions to others. Since revealing emotions involve many things (personal or not). It can be a weakness. Therefore, people avert showing their emotions plainly. But especially, the sadness is hard to hide or ignore among the emotions. Here, I focus on expressing such aspects through the garment. I express that How “I” react the sadness with the body and how “general” people react the sadness with the body.
Delicate pink layers are transparent and falling down on the body closely that gives the enervated aspects, while a heavy, blue-gray sateen slumps over the shoulder and sleeve, representing the exaggerated posture and emotions. (the personal sadness_ I use to show exaggerated pose or gesture to hide and control my emotions) Hands nervously grasp various parts of the garment in expressions of panic, frustration and sadness. Every choice for the garment represents that I’ve involved my message and connections.