the older I got the more I unveiled the curtain that had been shielding my innocence for so long
the older I got the more I realized how corrupt this world was;
and how it wasn’t built for people like me;
and ripping at the seams
the more i exist in this reality
the more i wanted to escape from it
I wanted to go back to my innocence,
where i sat on my carpeted basement floor
and would watch Disney movies
hours on end
I wanted to sit in front of my big, old,
and be transported back; to
where Cinderella gets
her prince charming
where the under dog always wins,
where kids never grow up,
where a pegasus flies in the sky;
and where everybody lives
I wanted to escape
and that’s what I’ve done
I’ve utilized my television as a lens
into my fantasy world
where I watch a 3 dimensional world
on a 2 dimensional plane
caught between the plastic screen
as I sit and watch
the screen glitches,
distorting it’s world
but all I can do is
sit and watch
because it’s just a fantasy,
an escapism of my reality
I’ve illustrated my fantasy through my use of different
textiles, textures, treatments and silhouettes;
In my collection I showcase an array of textiles,
the floral prints you see were originally bedsheets that I found in my childhood home,
Even though I utilized these bedsheets as a way to cut down on fabric costs, they really paired well with my concept,
creating a floral landscape for my screen print motifs to exist.
the floral prints also informed my color palette for my whole collection;
every look encompassing a color of the rainbow!
I utilized organza as a way to contrast some of the other heavy weight fabrics,
it allowed me to create beautiful flowy moments, that reminded me of the dresses that I would see on Disney princesses.
Another textile that I used was clear vinyl,
through it’s plastic materiality and clear sheen it creates a lens for me to look through,
flattening my garments just like a TV screen would.
I took scenes from movies like Fantasia, Bambi, and Peter Pan and distorted them digitally to create my own print motifs;
they are distorted because although it’s a fantasy, I am only able to access it through the television screen,
which like the old Television I used to have, can distort and glitch an image~
playing with the duality between fantasy and reality;
I also paired these motifs with writings and text from my research book, that contained personal feelings and diary entries.
I then used these motifs to print on the floral bedsheets using complementary colored inks which are both visible and subtle,
I like allowing the viewer to continue to be able to discover more things the more they look at it
I also utilized the motifs to screen print with foiling and disperse dyes on the white organza.
Additional to printing by hand I also created digital plaid and gingham prints that are
distorted on different textiles like cotton, fleece, silk jersey, and mesh
some including the “sparkle” motif that you will see running throughout my collection.
In my general practice I love hand quilting, so I decided to included that in this collection, by quilting together clear vinyl, floral bedsheets, and batting,
encapsulating the printed images under a clear screen;
the quilting also helped me create flat silhouettes,
pushing the idea of how although something may communicate 3 dimensionality,
it is still only 2 dimensional because it’s in a TV screen.
In my illustrations, I draw a lot of “sparkles”, so I wanted a way to translate that into a physical form on my garments,
so I created a digital file of different sparkles that I then laser cut clear acrylic with, which I then beaded on some of my looks;
To create accessories like necklaces and earrings, I laser cut and engraved motifs that you see in my printing on clear acrylic as well.
SATIN BIAS/ SCALLOP HEMS:
Through out my collection as a way to finish seams and hems, I utilized satin bias tape and sewed it along the scalloped edges in a swirl like pattern,
this was a way to communicate the hand draw quality many old animated films had.