How does it feel to be a chinese student living in this COVID-19 pandemic in the United States? I am having a split brain for information coming from both countries. What should I believe? I feel I have been excluded from both countries. At the same time, I have to worry about extremely expensive and restricted plane tickets flying back to China, completely clearing out my apartment, racist accusations saying that we are the ones who carry the virus, and most importantly, staying alive. All these bubbles burst in my head like brain hyperplasia. Thinking too much also becomes a disease. I need some protection, to protect me from the virus, from public shaming, and from this chaotic world.
In this collection, I am using the N95 masks to clearly demonstrate the sense of protection. At the same time, the curvy holes in the front of the vest are also hyperplasia of guts and mind both physically and mentally. The black grid is both protection and also restriction. It represents when I have to stay in Chicago for safety but at the same time it prevents me from going back home. The fabric has Gingko which is a leaf originated in china. It represents my personal identity. Humans importantly have twelve pairs of ribs that support the body’s structure and protect organs. And I use the whalebone to stimulate these bones in my body that are trying to protect me. All the bubbles and plums are the softest part inside of my heart. I have always had a twisted and conflicted mind between the idea from the western country about COVID-19 and between the idea from the eastern country especially where I am from. So, I used the two faced garment to demonstrate my state of mind when all the messy information is in my brain.